crying feels like the rain

I'm not sure why a good cry feels so good now and then...is it just a burst of emotion that can't be expressed any other way? I don't cry as often as I would like to. I had a good cry this morning. It feels like my heart has been rained on. Don't ask why, it isn't important...and I am still enjoying the smell of fresh rain on the pavement. Ok, well I guess this will give it away. Jeremy and I had a miscommunication...my feelings were hurt...he was disapointed...girls make things really complicated with all of the insecurites and emotions that we bring into EVERY situation. I guess why the cry felt so good is because we had a beautiful reconciliation. We rarely fight (it's even hard to call them that because it is usually an emotional discussion...there needs to be a better word for that)...but we didn't used to have great reconciliations. One of us would just bow out and give in....we took turns. A couple of months ago we had a great break through where we learned how to reconcile one to another. It is beautiful....it almost makes the miscommunication worth it. So, today there was no giving in to the other to get the discussion over, we communicated and expressed our point of views...accepted the others...apologized for our own faults...and moved on. He hugged me and affirmed me (hard for most guys to do when discussing). I melted in his arms and now feel more in love with him than yesterday. He is a good man and one who exemplifies such wisdom...this verse reminds me of him and is a reminder to me:

...but the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere... james 3:17

A great quote!

sky painting by alecsander

♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸❤¸¸.•*¨*•☆.｡.•*✿ “The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be."♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸❤¸¸.•*¨*•☆.｡.•*✿


That is so true of me! I am very satisfied in life. I love living almost every day...but there are times when I struggle to be "happy." When I read the above quote off of one of my friend's facebook pages...I felt like there was a bell going off in the room! I ALWAYS see the past better than it was...I tend to see the present in a slightly dimmer light than is real and until I married Jeremy the future seemed like it would never change into something better. Marrying a complete optomist has helped and the stability he brings to my life makes a world of difference! BUT, I'm still going to post this on my fridge. I think it's a great reminder!

Part of who I am

So, stepping out into the world of people and intimacy I went to a Women's "Bible study" yesterday. I quote Bible study cause we aren't reading the Bible. We are reading Beth Moore's new book (which is great...I don't like her old stuff and I love her new stuff since 2002 I think). Yesterday we just did the get to know one another thing...there are 8 women including the leader (there are several groups) so it is small enough to be real if we want. In two hours a cold little conference room (with no kleenex) was transformed into a home for our hearts quite quickly. I haven't seen that happen very often. When it came to my turn to share...I shared what is happening in my life right now...as the circle finished the Lord was speaking something to my heart. I am who I am today, but all that I have been through makes up my story. My story did not start a year and a half ago when I got married...or 7 months ago when I had a baby. I feel like I have been accustomed to lopping off parts of my life. My drug addicted mother abandoned us to my wonderful Father...LOP. Crap hits the fan in Idaho before I leave...LOP. I am not talking about reigniting fires (or relationships) that have gone out...but it does contribute to who I am today, and I need to accept that. It could be painful. No, it will be painful to accept parts of my story that I would rather not tell people...but watching women in that group yesterday expose their wounds ministered to my heart. I need all of my wounds, even if they have been healed to minister the love of Jesus to other people.

The picture really doesn't have much to do with my post. I just liked it.

Tax Man! Ten weeks to go!

Here we go again! Tax season has officially started. If you don't know what my husband does...prepare yourself to be amazed. He gets paid to get people more money from the government. No one believes a wife when she says how wonderful her husband is at his job...isn't that our job? To say nice things about them? Fine then, don't believe me and do your own taxes, and get way less money than if he did them. Or better yet, pay The Block to do them and still get way less money back. He just did an offer and compromise for someone who owes over 80 thousand dollars to the IRS. He is seriously the bomb. This isn't a plug to get him more clients (but if you want to use him, give me a ring). It's just to brag...that he's amazing and I am so proud of him. He works his butt off at work all day for everyone else and then apologizes for getting home so late, picks up dinner and movies-and still comes home with a smile. If I were him, I would demand a beer and go to bed, taking license to be grumpy the entire time. He's such a trooper.

So here's how tax season goes for us...Jeremy works till 8, 9 or 10 every day (except Sunday...he still takes that off)...that's when he's home. When he goes out of town (cause it's a traveling tax team?) he works from 8 to 8 and sometimes later. In addition to that he spends a lot of his free time doing taxes for his friends, family and personal clients. I really have no clue how we survived this last year...being newly married, and pregnant! Kind of relieved that year is over! He gets such joy out of serving his personal clients...not only because they pay him...but becuase he loves helping people. He amazes every client he has ever had and continues to do so. Sure, sometimes he can be a little hard to get ahold of...but that's where I come in. I am now checking his messages every other day and his clients are welcome to call me if they have any questions! So, here's to this years even more successful tax season! If you want to use his services, let me know! Or if you have an embarassing or tough situation...nothing surprises Jeremy, he's seen it all!